Oy sums up a lot of feelings for me. Starting this blog. Sharing with personal friends and family and not hiding what I have become. Some family and friends haven't seen me in years. Why? Because, this body is not who I am. I used to be cute! Guys would flirt with me. You want a news flash? Guys don't flirt with the morbidly obese, let me tell you. Maybe if they're a little on the chunky butt side themselves, but I'm a little vain, I want Mr. Cutie Pants to flirt with me. Yes, I am married, but I know who butters my bread. All I want again is a little free drink action, people!
So yes, OY.
For the first time in my adult life, I am going to be on a journey to lose weight. Changing my portion sizes, adding more exercise and journaling here to say what I need to say but usually won't in real life. It may hurt me at times. It may hurt others, but I've often found I express myself better when I write, rather than talk because I can't edit what I'm trying to say.
Who knows, maybe this will work and help me and a few others out. I've never gone on "a diet" before. I've never needed to. I am going to blame my husband. He married me and started this whole story! If he hadn't fallen madly in love with me, I wouldn't be here. That sounds perfectly acceptable to me. I said this was a journey for my weight loss, not accepting personal responsibility! If there is one thing I am good at, it's not being personally responsible for stuff!
I hope you join me and maybe smile occasionally, perhaps a laugh or two, perhaps come to a realization of your own. Life has a way of smacking down the pride in us. There went mine.
PS-I'm on week 2 of my first time ever joining Weight Watchers. I lost 3.2 pounds my first week. I'm ready for a thong bikini! Or not. But let's see how much fun we can have losing weight, shall we?
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