Personal Responsibility and how to avoid it.

Today's subject is a very serious matter.

I have to make goals for myself and actually write them out. This...is....hard. I don't have goals, quite honestly. If being a good mom every day is a goal, then I guess that's my goal, every single day. Except today. Today I overslept. Not really. I set my alarm for 6:00 a.m. and when it went off, I reset it for 6:30 and it failed me. Or I turned it off in my sleep, one of the two. I will blame failure on the part of my phone alarm, though.

Talk about a walk of shame. "Hi...I'm Olivia's mom and I'm a LOSER who is walking her daughter into the office so that I can feel the shame blazing out of your eyes, into my body, for being 40 minutes late." I should have just dropped her off at the curb and taught her a life lesson. Learn to take some personal responsibility for your actions. Why is it you could get up at 6:30 a.m. the entire Thanksgiving vacation after going to bed well after 10:00 p.m. most nights when your normal bedtime is 7:30 p.m., yet today, when you went to bed at 8:00 p.m. last night, you don't even notice it's light out and 7:45 a.m.? Kids.

Anyhoo, back to my goals. I should make one goal losing weight, because the whole reason I started this blog was to talk about me losing weight. Yeeeeah....I fell off that band wagon. I am going to get back on it! I am dedicated! Ok, maybe not so much dedicated as my therapist wants me to write out some goals for homework. 3-6-9-12 month goals. Whoa! Back up that train, lady. That's a whoooole lot of commitment for me. I can make goals like, "I want to finish this bottle of wine before 9:30 p.m." Or, "My goal is to bring down my grocery bill so that I can afford 2 big bottles of wine." Those go on sale for $9-$10 dollars sometimes and it hurts to buy a lot of those big bottles if you're into collecting them, as I am. I can justify it though, because if I buy 6 bottles of wine, I SAVE 10 percent! Uh...yeah...a savings of 10 percent adds up over time, people. Do the math.

Ok...goals. 1. Lose weight. Ugh. 2. Save money on wine. CHECK. 3. Write more on this blog? I write for my own entertainment because I entertain myself. Maybe a few people think it's funny, too. At some point, there might be some serious posts but I usually find humor in bad things as well. Laughing is what has kept me going all these years. If you can't laugh at yourself, it probably means your voice box has been removed.

Good night.